“First, forget inspiration.”

lady on the bus.
girl on bus, drawn on my way to my MRI appointment
“First forget inspiration. Habit is more dependable. Habit will sustain you whether you’re inspired or not. […] Forget talent. If you have it, fine. use it. If you don’t have it, it doesn’t matter. As habit is more dependable than inspiration, continued learning is more dependable than talent.” -Octavia Butler, Furor Scribendi

Side venture updates: March is going well–even better than expected. I think I’m on target to make $500+ from my main outlet, possibly more. Today I stand at around $421, and just released a new item for the weekend. At this rate, dare I dream that March might be around $600 from main outlet?!

April is going to be $1k+ for sure (maybe even $2k?!), when a few major payments roll in from other outlets, but that’s going to be for Q4 2014. Shall I count it as going towards my $1k month in 2015 goal? I think it counts…since my monthly totals during Q4 ’14 were lower due to those payments being missing. So, come April I will have hit a major goal for this year. Now I get to ponder quarterly freelance taxes!

Things are going to slow down on this front for the rest of this year. I want to focus on some other projects, and can’t dedicate time to SV at its current pace without totally losing interest in it. I do feel like SV has proved a major point to me, though: with discipline and dedication, I can make money doing something I enjoy. Potentially, I can make good money doing something I enjoy. It’s deeply reassuring.

SV has been so consuming of my personal time that I haven’t done much in the way of art lately. I do miss it. I think I will get back into sketching. Lately I get so much inspiration from storyboard artists & cartoonists on Twitter and tumblr that it’s almost paralyzing–my skills are so pathetically underdeveloped in comparison! But then I remember that I draw for pleasure and nothing else.

If my livelihood depended on it, I think I would not enjoy it quite so much. Someone at work talked about his own side venture from a few years back. It was creatively based, and at one point it was getting so huge and profitable that he had to make a big decision about its future. He chose to shut it down completely so he could work his regular job. His advice was that if you do what you love for a living, you’re going to end up hating it on some level. This is true, I think. I enjoy history a lot more now that I’m not writing it professionally.

That said, I’ve been thinking a lot about structure lately. Without it I tend to fail. Every great achievement in my life has been built on discipline and structure (and luck). I mean, half the things I attempt don’t come to fruition anyway, even with structure (ah, failure, my old friend!). But without it, I get and accomplish nothing.

I don’t have the time or wherewithal to attend formal classes for any hobby of mine, and what ends up happening is that I ignore they completely and then they sort of aches for attention. So, I’m going to have to institute some more structure on my own.

Goals for Q2 2015:

{SIDE VENTURE}
2 new items
Line up marketing for key item, target June 20, 2015

{DRAWING}
Learn how to cross-hatchAttend Dr. Sketchy’s/get in 10 hours of figure drawing

{WRITING}
Short story (Gil) to submit
Finish outlining Poppy
Write 20k words for Poppy